Talkback with Junk Infinite insights into the cavernous world of Chunk’s Garage & Life in general.

After 36 years, I have had an awakening. With this awakening comes a comparison. The comparison of what is, to what was once was, for so very long.

In this self-assessment, I was able to draw some important conclusions.

First, I realize I was in a constant state of restlessness. This comes from a mind full of random things, 24/7. A never-ending high speed movie of random images and content, played at 30x the regular speed.

This package comes complete with no “OFF” switch. No way to slow it down, tune it out, or pull the plug whatsoever. Now take a moment to think about this in your life, for as long as you can remember. Every single day of it.

Imagine reading something and not picking up the content. Now imagine having to read the same material a half dozen or more times to pick up the same content most people get on the first read.

Imagine someone talking to you, but the words are muted from a hodgepodge of background noise and disturbance.

Imagine this occurring in 80-90% of every casual conversation, training session, meeting, and phone call you have ever had in your life.

Imagine not being able to have prolonged conversations of any nature, with loved ones, friends and coworkers. Sit and talk with your wife? Better make it quick, there’s something else turning in the garbage grinder that is your mind. Patience? Forget about it. There can’t be patience when you can’t have peace, when your mind is worn out from a marathon of thoughts. Try to sleep? Better work yourself into exhaustion first.

Second conclusion, the HD part. I couldn’t sit still. Impulsive actions, songs, noises, dances, statements. You can imagine all the fun that must go with that. It’s funny when you’re a kid, not so much when you are an adult. It gets old.

I am experiencing peace for the first time in my life. And I love it. I think my wife loves the new me even more. No more never-ending high speed movie of random images and content, played at 30x the regular speed. We talk more now than ever, and I enjoy talking with her. We laugh together a lot more. We enjoy each other’s company more.

I can focus on what I choose to focus on. I haven’t had an impulsive urge to sing, dance, or make random noises since I took my first pill just a few days ago.

I wish I could sit down with you now Mum and talk, you’d be beside yourself in amazement. And like always, I’m sure we’d laugh until our cheeks hurt.

Thanks be to God
Num. 6:24-26